I live with a few issues which can really ruin my day…my week…my month…today is such a day and I admit that I am feeling sorry for myself.
I have no thyroid…removed due to cancer…which means I find I have to manage my energy levels carefully.
A big day or a late night can wipe me out for a week if I am not careful.
I suffer from food intolerances…mainly due to lactose issues…and recently I was diagnosed with Functional Nausea.
It can hit at any time, and seemingly without cause or reason…in fact, often I wake up with it, just like permanent morning sickness…oh joy…
And the weird part of it is I can often feel so sick, yet can be hungry at the same time…a total paradox and apparently part of this condition.
To top it off, I also suffer from migraines…not the lock yourself in a dark room type, but I do get auras and as I have got older, I get a bad headache as well.
Days can go past when I cope with the level of nausea, but then all of a sudden, the volume gets turned up and I can’t tune it out any more.
This weekend past, I got a double whammy…nausea with a migraine.
It all isn’t anything life threatening, and I know that there are so many people who have to deal with much worse chronic conditions than me…but knowing that doesn’t make it any easier.
So today, instead of going about my normal business, I have to put my life on hold while I try to get my headache and nausea under control so I can function properly.
It is frustrating, annoying and upsetting that my body can let me down like this, and there is not a lot I can do to stop it once an attack starts.
I envy those of you who never know what it is like to live with a chronic condition…who don’t have to worry about whether they will be sick and miss an event, or have to plan ahead.
Being at the mercy of my issues makes me feel fragile…the mind is strong but the body is weak…and currently, my mind is feeling very sorry for itself!
But for today, it’s no further than the couch for me…on a positive note though, I have caught up on the whole latest series of Lewis, one of my favourite UK crime shows…the perfect antidote to stop me from wallowing in self pity.
Tomorrow is another day so hopefully after some enforced rest, life can continue on it’s usual bumpy journey!
Do you suffer from similar issues, such as food intolerances, migraines and thyroid issues? What do you do to cope?